Lost my V(oters) card

This is my first election to vote in. My first election and what a sucky one to be my first. This is my first election to vote in and I didn't feel good hitting "submit ballot". I early voted (because I love being early) and I just felt so icky. I grew up expecting this sense of pride and empowerment when voting, especially for the first time and I didn't. I really just felt relief that being done with my part in voting in the election was over and the anxiety surrounding that had left me. Not pride. Not empowerment.  I felt extremely hopeless because "what does it matter?". I don't personally believe either of our two main candidates are fit for the position in the slightest and I almost didn't vote because whats. the. point. I look at this in two ways. One: hats the point because in all honesty does the president really have that much power anyways? I mean don't things have to go through layers and layers of people before they actually count? Two: what does it matter because eno matter what who is chosen on November 8 we lose. in my eyes this is a lose lose situation. Right now regarding this election and things going on in politics I'm in a very "I dont care and you can't make me" mood. Should I? Probably. Do I? Hell no... ask me tomorrow.